Doomsday

Well Yesterday was weigh in... it was two weeks since i had weighed in last and quite frankly i had been pissing around with my eating, i even ate things i didnt want to out of....stupidity can be the only thing to describe it....if an award was given for outstanding effort in self defeating acts/ Self sabotage then i would have to say i would win hands down over this last two weeks... Now i have some people who think that is to do with self respect and i agree for a part as letting myself GET to where i did was down to me not respecting myself but in that same token it was more to do with me not really liking myself OR feeling i was good enough to be healthy and fabulous, so while i have had a bad weigh in( it was a gain of 1.2kgs) now being bloated due to woman stuff could be a factor? but I have no excuses for they way I have been eating lately as i am fully responsible for my actions but im not going to get down in the dumps about it or punish myself for my mistakes as at the end of the day i am human and this is a learning experience and im certainly not going to allow myself to think of it as a utter failure or that i am a bad person as the only difference a successful person has is that they take the failure they learn from it and they keep going...and I AM NOT A QUITTER!!!


SO!! i have restarted on my super start food plan and will follow this again for the three weeks to kick myself back into it, i have unsuspended my account and started back at the gym and most importantly i am writing down what i am eating as this is where i was really decieving myself and not adding things properly....
so watch this space as my determination is renewed and i will have new photos soon to prove it!!!